Saturday, December 9, 2017

Unexpected Hiatus & Updates

Hey! Long time no write!
I took a pretty long hiatus from updating my life anywhere this year, due to unexpected life changes and other things happening at the butt of this year. The apartment I was living in started to show apparent signs of mold, which led me to having to move earlier than planned. The area I ended up having to move to is now 40 minutes to an hours car commute to work, when it was once a 10 to 15 min walk. If I want to catch public transportation instead of paying for an uber, I have to leave a good 2 and a half hours before my shift to arrive on time. I'm still in a temporary supervisor position, while holding down a dept head position at the same time. Even with both duties now being mine, I am not being paid enough for all that I'm doing nor do I feel appreciated at my job anymore. These feelings have led me into a slump about work, and are bringing up loatheful feelings towards my job. 
It's pushed me to put in applications elsewhere, and to get back serious about learning how to drive. I love riding public transportation [especially when there's no time restrictions on what I'm trying to get done], but it's a bit limiting when trying to get the best out of the time I have in a full day.  Baby steps though, since driving still gives me severe anxiety!
I haven't been able to give some good 'ol attention to my art in a good little minute, but I've not lost hope in it! I'm very confident that I just need to get back in control of my schedule, and I'll be able to get down and art again. 
Even though I feel like I have less and less time for things that I love, I have made time to get some self-love self-care in. I've been tampering with daily masking, drinking more tea, and cooking/eating better meals. 
2017 has been quite the high speed ride so far, and now that's it's coming to a close I can't have anything but positive vibes about the coming year. I'm excited for positive changes and what else the future has in store.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Thoughts, Friends, and Toys.

Lately, I've been finding myself stressing over the idea of having "friends" or a "best friend". I grew up with movies like Then & Now, The Sandlot, Lean on Me, and the like. Shows like this have depicted the idea of "I should have a super close best friend, or a group of friends that I can always turn to or hangout with". This has been less than true for my personal life.

It seemed as though that every person who had reached the level of me uttering "best friend" with a positive connotation to their name in the same sentence, I soon get screwed over or don't receive the same level of care I give from that very same person. It leaves me very uncomfortable allowing new humans into my personal circle. I find myself calling these people acquaintances/close acquaintances instead of using the term friends. Even if I do end up using the word friends, I usually am adding air quotes to the word so that all know it's not meant to be the real meaning of friends.

This is nowhere near a fun feeling, but the more I age and grow the easier it seems to let this feeling slide off of me. It gives me time to relearn myself, and what my real needs/wants are.

On a more positive note, I did hang out with a human I am highly fond of. I'd like to call him my friend, but it's easier for me to just express how much I care for this human. Platonically of course, but I still have intense love for this being and the things he represents. Anyways, enough praising him. A friend of mine from college was visiting for the weekend, and actually hit me up on my off day to see if I was free. I saw his posting on social media that he was visiting, and saw others commenting on his post of wanting to hang out. Me feeling like the oddball I am, I merely liked his status and kept it moving. Do I have to mention I was surprised to be contacted? Well, I was lol and quite excited to be invited out to do something.

I did get myself a little under the influence before we decided on a meet time, and was hoping I would come down before I had to head over to meet him...but of course I didn't, and my anxieties were on high. I did inform him before that I was under the influence, so he was prepared. Usually, I overthink what to talk about and how to act/react when hanging out with other humans. This time was very chill. We got him some food, then I showed him a couple of my favorite stores in the mall [oh, we were meeting at the mall by the way lol]. We'd walked about the whole mall, in and out of different stores. Very calm atmosphere of shopping and doing our own thing, but still together. I believe he could feel when I was uncomfy in a store due to people, and was ready to let me know we could go if I wanted to. It was nice to have a friend-like being paying attention to what my needs were, and not just me being the one doing so.

We ended up doing a lot of walking, and even ended up walking to the bookstore. It's the breath of fresh air that I look for in the people I want in my "inner circle" you know? Though I can't get it from everywhere, it's nice to know that it isn't completely a lost cause.
My face though.
Let's see the goodies and gets that I stumbled upon from our outing! All toys of course because I'm 5 ^_~.
IT Pennywise Funko Pop Figure
Jimi Hendrix Funko Pop Figure [for my fella]
[Disney Store]
Disney Mxyz blind box keychain
Madoka Magica Madoka figure
Not only was the day with a friend delightful, but pretty much all the goodies I'd found I'd also gotten a lovely deal on. The pops were on sale for getting more than one, and I also received a voucher to use for next month. My lovely Madoka find was sitting on the clearance table, calling out to me. I was surprised she was still there, and no one had already snatched her up before me. I almost have the urge to rewatch the anime, but I think I'm not due for a hard cry just yet lol.

All in all, even if your life is seemingly overflowing with negativity there is gobs of positivity waiting for you somewhere. Take the bad as decently as you can, then grow and get on from it. Hopefully typing it out will help it stick 😛

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Teas' Tea 🍵 Tasting and Review

Forever attempting to add more tea-intake into my daily life. World Market was [still is] having a sale on a couple of their Teas' Tea teas, so I snagged up one of each flavor for trying out. 

Organic Pomegranate Blueberry Green Tea
Organic Mango Yuzu Green Tea
Organic Peach Ginger Black Tea
I took one for each of my work days, Saturday-Sunday-Monday, giving my taste buds some time to rest before diving into another flavor. I was also hoping that it would be a good "day-starter" beverage, and would give me  a sense of energy boost for the coming work day ahead.
I'd decided on trying the Pomegranate Blueberry flavor first. I thought it nice to start my day off with, not only some added non-coffee caffeine, but a nice little boost of antioxidants. This specific bottle states that it was made with purified water, cane sugar, green tea, and natural flavors. I highly appreciated the lightness of the flavors. Usually, pomegranate is a little on the tart side for me. There was no overbearing flavors coming from any angle. I do believe I felt a little bit of energy, and a will to stay positive throughout the day...which is very hard when you work in retail hell. I drank the whole of this tea before I even made it home!
Sunday's tea was the Organic Mango and Yuzu Green tea. It has the same makings as the pom-blue tea, except there's added dried mango. I adore how aesthetically pleasing this bottle is. The hue of the tea coinciding with the color of the label. It puts me in a better mind set just staring at it. The flavor is what's most important though, right? The taste of this tea was delightful, but after a while of drinking it it started to give off a candy-like after taste. Like I was sucking on hard candy, but all I'd done was sip this tea. That didn't stop me from finishing the whole bottle, though I'd finished it's remains when I made it home. I still felt decently energized, and positive throughout the day. I'm unsure how often I'd drink this one, only because of that aftertaste. It'd probably taste REALLY good frozen o.o.
Great phone-cam pic [oh the sarcasm]
Monday's tea was the last of the bunch. The organic peach ginger black tea. I had high hopes for this one....because I love things peach flavored! The ginger was nice and light, but I think the black tea aspect of it was something my body didnt agree with. Or, maybe just a combination of the three together. I did try to drink the full of this tea throughout the day, but I wasn't able to finish it. It's actually still sitting in the fridge in the breakroom as I type. A third of the way through, I started to feel a little ill. Like I was going to be nauseous soon. That was the beginning of me slowing down on drinking it, and what's led it to be forgotten at work. I dont think I'd buy this one again to drink for myself. If I buy it for my fella to try and he likes it, then that would be my only reasoning for repurchasing it.

In conclusion, the one I was most worried about enjoying ended up being my favorite. I would give the organic Pomegranate Blueberry green tea a 4.5 out of 5! I'm hoping they don't sell out before I can get a decent stocking of the ones they have left. I may buy a couple of the Yuzu and Mango green teas as well, but I'm definitely leaving the Ginger Peach on the shelf!

🍵 Thank you for reading!🍵
Have you changed up your teas for the fall season yet?
Find Teas' Tea at World Market
[Not sponsored, just love tasting the stuff from World Market]

Thursday, August 3, 2017

July PhotoDump + August Goals 2017


Some of my favorite memories from July! I received a lovely present from a close friend, got to explore a new [to me] eatery with another friend, get back into kawaii and stationary fun, and acquired a new pen pal! I'm still working on mastering meal prep, but I am getting better!

Goals for August

Meal Prep
I want to be able to have at least our lunches for the week planned out, but I know if I only do "lunch" we may end up eating them on our lazy cooking days ( =_=)>. Anyways, anything closer to perfecting it would be amazing really. Another point --> At least we're adding more and more fruits/veggies to our diets!

I've been pretty consistent with posting a vlog for every Thursday, since I've made it my "thing". I'd like it to be completely consistent though, heh. I'd also noticed me losing my blog motivation, and giving all my attention to vlogging. I don't want to continue neglecting my poor blog, and I will definitely be trying to comment and interact more! I suppose I could say that last bit is for real life too.

Oh, how I'd love to be better at communicating. What I do at work is fake and forced, but in the real world I feel like I'm just rambling and annoying. So, let's lose that feeling completely and just say whatever's on my mind! Cod flabbit! Well, at least if it's something I really want to say that is. I'd also enjoy being generally more comfortable holding conversations with people I care about [can I reiterate enough that I dont care about my customers XD].

I am constantly talking about decluttering, or think I'm decluttering but in retrospect...I'm really just tossing things I would feel comfy giving away in tote bags and putting them in the "Go to Goodwill" corner..heh. I hope to follow through with donating these things, and continue the process of letting go. I'm sure it'll definitely help with any emotional/mental strains that may be adding to my feelings of overwhelm.

Read and Craft
I've fallen way behind with my Goodreads Reading Challenge for this year. Not like I've really finished any of the prior years, but that's neither here nor there. I'd really like to accomplish this one this year, and am currently reading From the Fatherland with Love [Ryu Murakami]. It's quite the hefty book, but its one more I need to finish to have read all of Murakami's works. I'd also like to reopen my storenvy, and am hard trying to get better at digitalizing my art. Not completely going away from traditional art either, which makes having "merchandise" even more fun. I have a lot to accomplish before I'm ready to open up, but I believe I can get a chunk of it done this month!

What are your favorite or least favorite memories from July? 
What are you most excited to get into for August?
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Thanks for reading
💓 Starfish

Saturday, July 8, 2017

Lavender Confetti Nails

I deal with a good bit of furniture moving, down-stocking, and other nail polish deterrent things at work. Which means, my nails chip quite easily and frequently. That's ok though because chipped nails means new nail polish! I'm still quite stuck on the pastel polish I seem to have in my arsenal and chose a deep lavender color for this week's nail art!

I picked out another one of my funky fingers glitter/confetti polishes to keep me from just painting every nail the same color. The little bit of change up helps to justify me owning so many different bottles of polish, teehee.


I think they came out cute [as if I'd think any of my nail combos weren't cute], but I think I'll play with the "confetti" aspect if I do this combination again. I feel like the lavender is more overwhelming than I want it to be. 

Thursday, July 6, 2017

June Favorites 2017

A new month is upon us, which means it's time to take a look back at the materialistic goodies that were happy-making for my June. Just a quick short list of my favorites for the passed month!

The first couple items are my newest journal and bus pass holder. 
I saw the journal while at work, and absolutely HAD TO HAVE IT. Well, after some thought that is. When I first opened up it's box and saw the succulent print, I was instantly in love. I know I collect paper like porcelain dolls collect dust, so I slept on it for a couple of days before actually buying it. The two factors that made me pull out my wallet were: 
1. Front & Back Print
The succulent print in the inner front and back covers is gorgeous. 
A beautiful marriage of my favorite colors [blue green and purple]. 
The aesthetic is visually appealing, and brings me happy calm feelings.
2. Binding's Bend-ability
Ooooooh yessss, that's nice. 
The winner was me being able to lay my journal down flat, 
which creates a more comfortable writing angle for me.

I've been using the Journal daily so far. I thought I'd found something great when I bought my planner, but what I really needed was to rekindle with the idea of journaling. I'm able to get all my thoughts out, collage and write about the day, use my vast sticker and washi tape collection, and doodle all in the same place. I've decided to even use planner bits for it instead of trying to keep a planner. It's been working much more smoothly.

The last items are the skin care bits that have stayed on my countertop regardless of the day. These products are so enjoyable that even my fella uses them 😊

Oxy Cleansing Pads have been a go to item for me ever since I can remember first getting acne. I'd initially tried the popular branded acne facial cleansing things. They'd all reacted negatively to my sensitive skin, creating a worse situation than what I'd started with. I've never had a problem with the Oxy formula on my skin, no matter the situation. It's even calmed down my skin from when I was experimenting with new skin care. Stick with what you know, right?

This is my boyfriend's absolute favorite, Black Charcoal Toothpaste. So much so, that he believes we need a stock pile of it since the one I order takes a while to deliver. I love it as well, and have pretty much replaced my go to toothpaste for this one. I've seen great results over time, as well as in my fella's mouth. 10/10 would recommend. If the "black" scares you, never fear! It's more of a grey color, and starts looking like regular toothpaste almost immediately into brushing.

I actually did a little tester video for this nose pack. 
I find myself recommending it to everyone. Not only is the packaging adorable, but it smells like strawberries and it leaves my nose feeling so lovely.

Thanks for reading
Let's see what July brings.

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Cosmic Kawaii Nails

Does anyone else get the urge to do their nails before work? Since I'd been working mid-shifts [usually starting at 11am or 12pm], I've had time to play in the morning. Which brought me to this polish combination.
I decided to skip a finger with the color scheme and alternate for the other hand. I love the results, and feel the need to update my arsenal with more pastel colors for more funky cute patterns.

Saturday, June 24, 2017

Recent Stationery Buys

With the purchase of a new Journal, the spark I once had with stationery has been reignited. I took to the one place I knew I could get a quick fix without tapping too much into my bank...Aliexpress. The goodies haven't arrived just yet, but here are the lovelies I'm waiting for. 

So many goodies that I can't wait to get my hands on. I think I'm most excited for the sakura petal washi tape, and the grid sticky notes. It will be nice to have a nice set of carry around highlighters [and mini box cutter], and one can never have too many stickers. It also looks like I've fallen back into the washi tape craze. I was going to wait until I've used up all the ones I currently had before buying more...that worked out well, obviously.
I also picked out this adorable pastel blue choker to go with my pastel blue coords. The Sailor Moon socks are for a Friend package I'm putting together, well for a friend lol.
Thank you for reading!

Tuesday, June 20, 2017

June 15 & 16 | 2017

Initially, I planned to take a trip to the local Botanical Garden with a little group of friends. All of them did end up bailing on me, and due to not having working headphones I decided not to make the trip alone. Something about walking without headphones gives me great amounts of anxiety. I decided to instead treat myself with a little bit of noms, journaling, and pen palling.

The 16th was a bit more productive for me, though I did still spend a good bit of the day at bed...
🐙 Caught up with OITNB [so I could watch with Steven again]
🐙 Finished editing a video for Youtube 
🐙 Journaled in new Journal 😊

No tidying up, no headstart on cooking, nothing super productive but still productive things in their own right, heh. Once my heart arrived back home, I made a mad dash for the front [where he parked] with his flip flops in hand. We were headed to Tropical Smoothie Cafe to get the free sunshine smoothie they were offering if you were wearing flip flops. 
The cashier seemed to have an attitude at the fact that we were only stopping in for the free smoothies. I thought it'd be a blessing in disguise since they had hella people there with quite the line. It tasted like a blend of bananas, and oranges with a hint of coconut. From there we mossied on over to Five Below, so I could pick up some new decently priced earbuds. 
I was happy to find some cute blue ones. I was initially just going to get a blue and purple of the Jelleez, but once I saw the blue ColorBuds I knew I had to have them too.
I picked up some candy as well...but of course that all disappeared before photos were taken 😜. I was sad and surprised, but they didn't have any blind boxes available. Maybe next time. 
After that, we took a quick pit stop at Wendy's to get some dinner. Two Baconators with two 6 piece nuggets. Needless to say, we devoured everything as well as all of our beverages.
My precious
Thank you so much for reading!

Friday, May 26, 2017

---ColourPop Makeup Fun Pic Dump---

Photos From Nikon in natural light
NYC Liquid Eyeliner [black]
Too Faced Pure White Sketch Marker
Colourpop Cheeky Super Shock Shadow
Etude House Look at my Eyes [RD301]
Colourpop Paradox Super Shock Shadow
Colourpop Marshmallow Ultra Satin Lip
Colourpop Dopey Ultra Satin Lip

Pictures taken on Phone Camera

Treat Yoself Birfday Shopping Haul [pic&word heavy]

I've gotten into that "treat yoself" kind of spirit one gets into when it's around ones birthday. That kind of feeling where you just want to spoil yourself to bits and pieces. You tell yourself, it's finally time to get that thing you wanted. Or is that just me o.o? Well, I ended up getting many many things all throughout my birthday month anyways. It's not often that I go shopping for non-work related clothing [or just without work in mind], or makeup stuffs in general. I decided it high time to get some new pieces in both departments.
With many trips to malls and shopping centers with friends and my fella all during May, it wasn't that hard to build up a little haul of some super cute things.
This was my first time ordering and experiencing Colourpop cosmetics. Picking out colors was easy, there were promos going on, got some freebies, and shipping was quick!
Bright Idea Lip Trio
Friday Ultra Matte Lip
Frick'N'Frack Ultra Satin Lip
Marshmallow Ultra Satin Lip
Cheeky Super Shock Shadow
Paradox Super Shock Shadow
Ignition Super Shock Shadow
2x Mini Bar Lip Freebies

I've only tried out the Frick'N'Frack so far. This photo was after a full day's wear. The color is pretty close to my natural lip color, but still draws your eyes to my lips. I think it'd be nice to wear for any occasion, even if I'd decided I wanted to wear lippie to work...which I probably wont lol. The best part about the lipstick so far is...that it didn't break my lips out one bit!

Here are the current promos I took advantage of. They're still active, as well as free domestic shipping!

Still on a the makeup kick, I stopped at Sephora with a friend of mine. I decided to finally give "high end" makeup a try. If Sephora is considered high-end makeup, that is o.o? There wasn't very much I wanted to buy. There was a brush set, but it was sold out. The display set was even missing the one brush I wanted from the whole set. There were plenty of colorful eyeliners that I wanted, but I settled on only getting one along with my birfday freebie.
I bought this Sketch Marker in white from the Too Faced line. I've seen their line on many other blogs and videos I've come across. Their packaging for their pieces are pretty much too cute to pass up.
Such a cute container!
If I had purpose for shadow palettes right now, I'm sure I would have gotten one from the Too Faced line. There were also some liners from the Stila collection that I really wanted, but I couldn't justify spending $60 on eyeliners alone.
The gift I chose was from the Tarte line. I've never owned anything from Tarte, so to get a blush and mini lippie for a freebie gift was a nice way to ease into the line! I haven't tried either yet, but I think they'll be nice calm tones against my skin.
We ended up at Ulta that day as well. I'm still unsure how to get my bday freebie from them, but I picked up a couple different products anyways.
I was hellbent on finding a back scrubing bath brush [ecotools], and found one decently priced and durable looking at Ulta. I was going to buy one from World Market, but the brush seems to never want to stay attached to the handle
on the ones sold there. I also picked up another 3-step nose kit [TonyMoly] to have my fella try out. I'm excited to see if he likes it or not. If he does, then it solidifies my want to buy the ten pack I found online. I also got myself a little makeup bag. It's blue and looks like it could be a bandana print of sorts. I'm hellbent on finding a couple more, in aquatic prints. I picked up the Formula 10.0.6 Rescue me Acne blemish treatment since I'd been enjoying the other products I'd been trying from that line. Lastly, I got a little set of eyeshadow brushes.
It's nice and compact. I also like that they're double sided. It makes me feel like less space is being taken up with them being like that. I kind of don't want to use them until I find some proper brush cleaner though, haha.

I believe that is the jist of my makeup haullage. Now let's move on to the attire bits and bobs. I did have a mission for the clothing. I was supposed to be getting nice and flowy pieces for the hot months. Less dark clothing, and more things pastel or light. I also wanted to get my hands on a couple bodysuits, if not rompers.
I stopped at a store called Giti when Ladyfox and I went to the mall to visit Round1. Surprisingly, I was able to find some really lovely pieces!
The two croptops ended up being 1.99 each, and the romper was either $3 or $5. I love finding decent clothes for so cheap! I think I kind of hit "pastel" with the salmon shirt, and there's a pastel pink stripe on the sides of the grey romper. Starting good already! I also love this romper, not only for it's kawaiiness when on, but for the fact that it covers my cheeks! *wipes tear* they're so perfect.

We also stopped at the Rue21 [etc!] at that mall, and found one during our trip to the outlet malls. I found great sales both times. They each had a really good discount on top of their clearance prices.
From the first stop, I did only find the cactus top. The panties weren't on sale, but a girl never not needs new panties [a girl always needs new panties]. The cactus sleeves are a bit on the darker side BUT I though I could go in with my nice bright fabric markers, and do something fun with the print if I really wanna. Outlet shopping proved to be a little more fruitful. I stuck to my pastel needs, for the most part. I got myself two very comfortable pastel tees. One being sky blue, and the other being like a light kiwi green. I've worn the blue one already on a hot summer day. I don't think I sweat through, and it was actually cool compared to how my clothes usually feel. It is a bit baggy on me, but it's the look I was going for. Also found my first bodysuit! It's a teeny bit snug, but I like the shape it gives my body when on, so I had to get it. I love the floral print, and I think the pink is close enough to pastel for it to still be a win. The hoodie is just more of a comfy staple piece. Since it was so cheap, I picked it up...almost in every color. I stayed in control though teehee. I think it'll be nice if one of these days it decides to be cool, or for lounging around the house.

We found an H&M, and boy was I excited...except I didn't find much! 
I legit only found this pair of jeans, which were a STEAL at $5. I'd already worn these pants as well. Super comfy, though my waist is a bit small. My butt loves them though, so I'll just have to use safetypins or a belt for the waist if I really wanna. I did end up getting my fella two pairs of sunnies from H&M as well!
The last stop at the outlet malls for me, was Charlotte Russe. 
Everything's black pretty much! I don't know how this happened. My pastel mission was left at the door with this one lol. Everything was so decently priced, I couldn't say no! I picked up a nice comfy LIGHT maroon top [haha not pastel but it is a light shade of red], a black lace bodysuit, a link front crop top in black, some heart top leggings, and a pair of sunnies. Oh, and just now noticing that I'm missing a black and white crop top from this photo...I was wearing it the day I was taking pictures.

After all the mall visits were said and done, it was time to come home to my fella. He'd gotten back into reading for fun, and had finished the books he'd most reently gotten for himself. It meant a trip to Barnes & Nobles was in store.
I attempted to find some new horror, or spooky manga to read. I didn't go in with high hopes. Majority of the books pictured are for my fella, though I'll probably still end up reading them. I bought him the brain book and Siddhartha, as well as Joyland for myself. He picked up You Can Read Anyone and a Philosophy book for himself, though I had the YCRA book in my hand first. So more like a household book haul lol. I've started reading the You Can Read anyone book, but am alternating between that one and Eat Me.

I've had a lot of fun spoiling myself for this year's bday! I can't wait for the actual day, but if it's a nice chill relaxed day I think I can enjoy that.

Thanks for reading!
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